Friday, April 29, 2005

so e common tests haf kicked off. survived 3 of them. got another 3 coming up. so much to do, so much to study. but e problem is i don't feel lyk studying. not in e mood @ all. i noe. i noe e 'O's r coming. & i noe if i don't do well, i'm gonna disappoint ppl. my parents. e teachers. me. but i can't get myself started. damn. e pressure's on. but i'm not responding.

well, it's e end of april. been a long month. been thru a rollercoaster ride of emotions really. i'm really tired. just so spent. it's gd there's a holiday on mon. but i doubt it will do e trick. just how do u cure aches, aches buried deep inside?

my life is getting gloomy all round. Utd haf not been doing well. only got e FA Cup to look forward to. 2 yrs. 2yrs wifout e league title. i've forgotten how it feels to haf e team steamrolling opponents. i've lost tt winning feeling. hope a win in e final will cure tt. next season will hopefully be better.

it hurts terribly. so near yet so far. tt abt sums up my situation. missing her...

i heard the crickets at 5:49 pm

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