Sunday, December 31, 2006

I don't get whats going on. And I'm struggling with that. Each moment that passes just makes it worse. I don't know what to think, cos I know its just gonna make it worse. Man, where did all the colours go? Where did the colours in my life go?

What a way to end the year, eh? Feeling the way I do. Crap.

i heard the crickets at 7:02 pm


Saturday, December 30, 2006

My, my. What a year. Its been a huge year for me, albeit one thats just flown right past without me noticing. A year of transition, from school, to work, to school again. Leaving TMS was never going to be easy, and it wasn't. Aside from family, its influenced me the most as a person, and the memories I have will stay with me. The names and faces may become vague, but the experiences I will take with me to the grave.

TP can never replace TMS in my heart. For TMS occupies a special place, and nothing can ever replace it. But TP will have its own spot. Its been amazing, the last 8 months. Couldn't really ask for more. The people I've met in the last 8 months have been great, both new and old faces. Its been fun right about every single day, to be honest. Love it. Totally. =)

S2006 was another important event. Spent 9 of the 10 days on duty, and every driver, every police officer had a story to tell, a lesson to impart. Tough to wake up so bloody early in the morning every day, but it was fun nonetheless. Plus the pay... LOL. Now, if only it would come soon...

As for the paternal side of family, cousin Stella had another boy, Gared, to go with Gabriel. Gabriel's turning into a tyro, albeit a really cute one. LOL. Diana got married, congrats, to this engineer working in the aerospace industry. Her brother Leng is still spending most of his time in Taiwan working. His daughter's adorable by the way, a bit of contest between her and Gabriel for the attention of the family. Went down to the temple to pay respects on Qing Ming. Hadn't gone in years, due to NPCC and exams. It was good to go again. Found serenity there, and it was comforting for the family as a whole. I think the family hasn't gotten over Uncle Lui's departure, even after 3 years. Yea.

Haven't seen my relatives on my maternal side all that much this year. Uncle Hock's leg's getting better, but he still can't go back to the shipyard for another month at least. Miss all the cousins. Miss the times when we'd run all over the estate playing our little games. Yea. Another of the "those were the days", only with different people.

What a year. What a helluva year.

i heard the crickets at 5:41 pm

And so I'll finish 2006 with a very sore neck. Yea. LOL. Couldn't sleep last night lah. Thinking about stuff, and had a runny nose to begin with. Anyway, speaking of last night, it was major fun lah! Met up with the gang to catch "Death Note 2". Not too bad. Corny at times, but still helluva lot better than "Eragon". Yea. Then steamboat at Marina! It was just great to sit around and talk the night away, like we used to do oh-so-long-ago. Man, I miss those times. Those were the days.

i heard the crickets at 5:30 pm


Friday, December 29, 2006

Alright. Just finished with the switching to the new version of Blogger. Took a heck of a long time, and I don't see any differences yet. Ohwell. Just have to play around with the options to find out.

Watched "Eragon" yesterday. The movie was pretty much a waste of time. Corny lines, poor acting. Let the book down, which as it is, lacks the polished sophistication of The Lord Of The Rings, or even Harry Potter. Beautiful scenery, ala "The Lord Of The Rings", doesn't always make a good movie; it simply makes it more bearable to watch. How anyone can imagine making the second movie, "Eldest", with the scriptwriters they have now is beyond me. Probably wouldn't bother if it does come out. Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me.

What I said that night, is what I truly feel. I'm true. My word is good. =)

i heard the crickets at 10:56 am


Wednesday, December 27, 2006

My fuse blew. I don't really know why it happened. Things have been on my mind, but it ain't an excuse to blow up the way I did. Been trying to rein in my temper, but obviously, I ain't trying hard enough.

Yes. No. Yes. No. Yes. No. I can't read the signals. =\

i heard the crickets at 12:22 am


Monday, December 25, 2006

Has your life turned into a labyrinth? It its no wonder, since a lot of mixed signals and communication snarls have been coming your way. Foil these complicated energies by refusing to get into a funk and it will smooth over.

Found this off the Horoscope section of Life. Agree with the first two sentences. Working on the third. Its been getting to me. Yea.

Changed the blog skin for the New Year. Hope y'all like it. Leaving music out for this one; haven't found anything suitable yet. The theme's pretty meaningful to me. Didn't take time out to stand and admire nature before, but the walks to school everyday have changed that. The trees in the breeze, the blooming of the flowers, the morning dew-drops on the leaves. Beautiful. Love it.

Something I must mention. Christmas has given me a chance to talk to people I haven't talked to in ages. SK's (aka Patrick) one of them. Used to talk abit with him. About football and stuff. Played against him a bit too. Pity we didn't really have a chance to be real friends, what with the different classes and all. A wasted chance really. Nice dude lah. And I'm sure Jaime will agree. Jaime Peh Ee Theng! You're one lucky girl, with one great guy as your boyfriend! LOL. And SK, if you're reading this, you're one damn suay guy man. =X Just kidding. May your love keep growing! =)

i heard the crickets at 7:11 pm


Sunday, December 24, 2006

I feel odd. It just doesn't feel right. Kinda of like a mashed potato, I'm all mixed up. Just haven't a clue what to do now. Took a long walk after dinner. Didn't really solve it. I've got more questions than answers. Man, it just doesn't feel right. What a difference a day makes eh?

Hmmm. Read Marcus's blog. Been ages since I last saw him. Haven't been fair to him as a friend. Might even have been a little mean to him too. Didn't mean for it. It bugs me. Nice guy, good friend, but I probably haven't been the same to him. Man, I owe him an apology. Big time.

i heard the crickets at 9:56 pm

Its Christmas Eve! Woo~! Haha. Wonderful time of the year isn't it? The most magical things happen at Christmas. This year's Christmas has got off to a great start too. Breath-taking stuff from Ronaldo and Scholes last night, and the most brilliant volley from Scholes the absolute highlight of a pretty good game for the Red Devils. In fact, it was pretty much brillaint football played all over the league. 8 goal thriller at the Emirates, with Arsenal turning on the style. 4 at St James Park, with Newcastle continuing their recent revival, and Pompey coming from behind to crush Sheffield Utd at Fratton Park. Brilliant stuff really. What a feast. And to think the night began with a bore of a game (Fulham-West Ham). Lol. Magic, Christmas time. And there's more football to come. Man, I love the festive programme. =)

Chalet pics for Christmas please? =D

i heard the crickets at 12:52 pm


Friday, December 22, 2006

Woke up this morning to an sms alert, and found my spectacles almost crushed by the weight of my head, and my phone on the edge of the bed, right about to tip over. Fell asleep last night sms-ing would you believe? What are the odds? Lol.

Its the Winter Solstice today. Wouldn't have known had my Mom not called Uncle Hock about his leg. its pretty saddening to note that festivals such as the one we (ought to) mark today are slowly but surely going the way of the dodo. They represent thousands of years of tradition, and help shape the cultural identity we share. Perhaps its time we returned to our roots, and seek to understand the beauty of our rich background. I know I will. Will you?

Hope Uncle Hock gets better soon. =)

i heard the crickets at 9:22 pm


Thursday, December 21, 2006

Back from chalet! WOO~! Aside from the blasted rain and the cursed CCA interruptions, it was great. One year on, we've grown that bit older, matured that bit more, and still, nothing's changed. The more things change, the more they stay the same, as they say. 2304 rocks like nothing on this Earth man! WOO~!

I'm getting confused. But the more I know (but not necessararily understand), the more I think I'm in trouble. But I love every minute of it. =)

i heard the crickets at 12:05 am


Sunday, December 17, 2006

Me, my buddies and Ubin. Right about sums it up. Loved the breeze on the down-slopes. Loved the view from the hill-top (pictures to be published as soon as I get them =D). Loved the coconut juice. Man, it felt so damn shiok. Free and easy. Thats how I feel now. =)

Chalet, chalet, chalet. What more can I say?

i heard the crickets at 6:10 pm


Thursday, December 14, 2006

I didn't expect it. No, not at all. But then again, this place shouldn't have been all that difficult to find. What truly should surprise is the fact that for the third time in the last 21 months, I'm actually wasting a whole post and bag loads of my time on something that should be put to rest, for good.

I don't care anymore, not of you, nor events of the past. Yes, its true that things came to a head that day, but to accuse me of judging based only on what happened that day take things too far. Your actions over a long period of time convinced me just what sort of a person you were. For men in uniform, its loyalty, and the knowledge that the man next to them can be counted on, that keeps them going. Its the implicit trust in your comrade. Its the knowledge that the uniform makes everyone equals. To me, you didn't seem to know, or care of that bond, that trust that we should all hold dear. To me, you made it clear that you didn't treat us as equals; the events of that day simply making bluntly clear what had been in the air for months. It caused me a great amount of grief for me to know that a comrade was lost, that a person I treated as my brother had chosen to forsake our bonds of fellowship. Argue all you want, but to me, actions speak volumes, and convey a meaning far deeper than words ever can. Its come too far, and been too long, for words. Its too late.

Yes, its true that the grief I had turned to hate. But its all past now. I've put the animosity I had for you behind me. But I hold honour and trust as part of the values that shape me. You broke that pact of honour between us, and hence, I see no need for me to uphold my end of that pact. If you so choose to come, then by all means do. I will not seek to put you in a difficult position, nor to dampen the mood. We only want to enjoy ourselves, and so we will. But you cannot expect me to welcome you as my comrade, as my brother, for that time is long past. I will treat you with the respect that a former comrade deserves, but nothing more. That is all you can expect of me. We may share a common past, as comrades, but that is all that will be: the past. I wish to put an end to this chapter, to bring a close to something that should have ended a long time ago. Let this all die away like it should. To let it go on will only lead to the reopening of old wounds, and we all know that it would do no one any good then. Just leave it, let it die, like it should.

i heard the crickets at 10:26 am


Monday, December 11, 2006

Changed the song again. Doesn't it ring any bells brudders? Its been a year. Makan at the lao ti fang again soon?

i heard the crickets at 7:21 pm


Friday, December 08, 2006

Not feeling too good. My digestive system's been killing me the whole week. Don't remember eating anything too bad, or it just might be all that I ever eat are stomach-ache causes. Yeah, thats probably the case.

10 more days to chalet. Just 10 more days.

i heard the crickets at 11:17 pm


Tuesday, December 05, 2006

DAMNIT MAN! Why am I not given a choice in whether to attend this shit?! I gave my word to my buddies a long time ago. What am I supposed to do now? Break my word? Isn't this organisation supposed to recognise honesty and integrity as part of its core values? It wasn't communicated to us that this shit party was compulsory either. Why tell us only now? Why the hell do I have to break my word to attend some stupid party, and not one of my choice too? Compulsory party? Whoever heard of that kind of shit? I don't get this shit man. Pissed me off totally. Spoilt my night.

i heard the crickets at 9:06 pm


Sunday, December 03, 2006

Miss ya all. Man, I really do. 2304 rocks!

Hmmm. What a week. Its been a blur really. But what a week! =)

i heard the crickets at 11:17 am


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