Saturday, May 07, 2005

it sux. totally sux. tt is how i feel rite now. a lot going thru now. i'm just confused, guilty. perhaps i shld haf done it long ago. i don't noe. wad i noe it does not feel gd. its just totally horrible. i would so hate to haf to do it again. i'd rather die...
my life is going nowhere. in fact, i tink its got worse. i don't noe how i'm gonna survive in sch. wif tests & all. it's really a drag. hell. hate it. it ain't just e tests, everything. my life is a mess, every single part of it. i just wanna be frenz. will she ever accept me, as a friend. i just wanna put my feelings behind. i rather be frenz. don't wanna lose a gd friend. it would hurt a hell lot more than anything. r we still frenz?

i heard the crickets at 5:48 pm

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