Saturday, August 13, 2005

as i begin this entry wif sweaty palms, heartbeat quickening, e kickoff is a little less than 2 hrs away. after 2 long months, its finally back. can feel it now. e guys in school are all revved up for e opener i'm sure. utd has a noon kickoff, which isn't gd they tell me, god noes y... pool play boro, arsenal open against newcastle & chelsea travel to wigan. several columnists haf predicted tt utd might be back, & i hope they're rite. last season was just torrid, & having all e other big 3 cart off titles, it just hurts really bad. hope to haf e league title back. wanna haf it back real bad. wigan haf got a fairy-tale start, incidentally they've got arsenal away on e final day; last away team @ highbury. hopefully, e fairy-tale has a dream end, & chelsea lose. wad? miracles do happen ok...

ytd was nerve-wrecking, to say e least. e tension was palpable. u could just breathe in thick wafts of worry. i don't ever want to feel e way i did ytd. totally rotten. hate to feel so.. so helpless. wanted to help, but didn't noe how. hate tt rotten feeling. it just killed me. made everything else meaningless. football later put most of e life back in me. but i noe, i lost something ytd. it was taken frm me, & i'll nv get it back. e mental & emotional drain. nv do i wanna feel as helpless again, to nv be able to help. ever again...

i heard the crickets at 5:44 pm

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