Friday, December 02, 2005

just remembered something. today's my grandma's death anniversary. my paternal grandma. its been 10 years. she could only speak teochew, and i only bothered learning my dialects recently. so i never really understood what she was saying to me. come to think of it, i really regret not learning my dialects earlier. even though its still pretty bad, at least now i can understand and give simple answers. i really regret it. i miss my grandma. i want her to be around. i want to hold a conversation with her. she'd be proud if she knew i could finally communicate with her in her native tongue. my maternal granddad too. only spoke hokkien. he died before i bothered learning hokkien. makes me really sad to never really talked to them. don't want me and maternal grandma to end up the same way. i want to tell her a joke, or grouse about school to her, in hokkien of course. don't want to have any regrets about anything. learning hokkien as quickly as i can now. to make up for lost time. hope i won't be too late...

i heard the crickets at 10:07 pm

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