Saturday, February 03, 2007

Slept pretty late last night, so I was pretty surprised to find myself awake on my own, barely hours after finally managing to fall asleep. The first thing I was conscious of was this huge, and very crushing, wave of emotion, and it pretty much wrecked the rest of my day. Mom kinda guessed I was going through a rotten day; she packed me off for home even though there was grocery shopping still to be done.

Negative emotions breed negative feelings and thoughts. I've let negativity take control, and its just wrecked me. Wake up feeling bad, and I let it affect my whole day. Its pretty much self-inflicted I guess. And I'm tired of it. I just want this weight off, this monkey to get off my back. Its time I stopped wallowing in self-doubt and reproachment, and start believing in myself. Its time for me to step out of my comfort zone, time to step up and confront my fear. Its time for me to move on with my life. I don't want regrets. I'll take my chances.

Its time.

i heard the crickets at 6:02 pm

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