Sunday, March 04, 2007

Life. Purpose. Fulfilment.

There isn't much in life I can complain about. Life's been more than fair. Things are pretty much going smooth. Looks pretty good. Man, I ought to feel good. But funnily enough, I don't feel all that fantastic. Yea, its all pretty good, and I'd be pretty greedy to ask for more, but you know, its just not right; it doesn't feel complete.

I feel a void in my life, a gap that I just can't seem to plug. My life lacks purpose. I don't know where I want to go, I don't know where I want to be. I enjoy what I do, but will I still enjoy all this two or three decades from now?

I seek fulfilment. I seek happiness. And right now, I can't find it. What is my purpose here? Will I accomplish what I am meant to do? When this all ends, will I look back and feel satisfied?

I don't know.

But everytime I look up at the sky, be it in the day with the billowy clouds, or at night with the beautiful little stars, I find comfort. Its a big world out there. Someday, I'll find my place in the world.

i heard the crickets at 5:30 pm

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